Make Me Whole

As a performer it is very easy to feel listless, devalued, and depressed during the off season. Not super proud to say I have already spent my fair share of days laying around and being way more useless than I should have been. Here is my prayer for the gloomy times when things feel dark and sad.

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When I am staring out the window

Resenting the winter sky,

I pray I’d remember Your covering light,

And watch the darkness die.

May I not run with the lies

That Your wisdom will not help.

May I not indulge my pride,

That I am sufficient by myself.

May I remember to unfold

The thin pages of Your dense word.

May the nature of my cunning sin

Not lighten its saving worth.

Let me not forget to consult it

When there are other things to do,

Or find something else to turn to

That isn’t half as good as You.

Let my heart not rest with ease,

Until I read Your lines of truth.

That I may understand the richness

And the sustenance they prove.

In my weakness You are strong.

You hold me when I can’t stand.

No need to do everything by myself

When living by my Creator’s hand.

May I always find my value

In who You say I am.

Not in body image, hobbies, or jobs

That will always fail in the end.

May I know the bad thoughts when they come.

May I catch them with a net.

May I filter them through Your truths about me,

And see my insufficiencies met.

May Your words be a refreshing rain,

Pouring down and around my soul,

As the droplets curve over the body You designed,

Your embrace will leave me whole.

It is easy to think I can live without You,

But the truth is that I’d be resigned.

I’d be lost, could I not find completion in You,

The best part of Your grand design.